on the inside

unimportant.

I always feel like I’m the unimportant one in the group. Like I’m always the one that’s expendable. That’s left out. When I’m not there, the rest of the group is just fine. They “forget” to tell me our plans when it actually comes time, and are extremely unreliable about lunch/dinner dates and hanging out. I feel SO unimportant. Like it really doesn’t matter if they spend time with me or not because they have each other, so who cares how I’m doing? Last I checked, that’s not how best friends act. And when we are together, they just tell me about the awesome time they had without me. COOL. I’d like to say that I honestly don’t give a fuck, but I do. I care that you don’t seem to care about our friendship anymore. I feel so alone right now and usually, you’d be the one I’d call crying. Which makes it even worse that you’re the one making me want to cry.